What I Want

I've been doing a lot of thinking. A lot. (That may scare some of you, but no worries. I'm not planning a prank or anything.)
Since Summer Heritage, my heart has been really stirred. Well, since before Summer Heritage actually, but this past week definitely added to it.
I can't stop thinking about the kingdom of God, being involved in the work of God, and that sort of thing. I've prayed about it, searching my heart and making myself available to the Lord. I find myself in the car praying for the Lord to have His way, or singing songs of worship to my Saviour.
I've had such a desire in my heart to work for the Lord, to be the lowliest of servants in His kingdom, to see His sweet face, to be a part of the work that He has promised for these last days. Its the cry of my heart. Its everything that I could ever dream of and more. It is what I want.

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before You, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them Yours

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

What can we give that You have not given?
And what do we have that is not already Yours?
All we possess are these lives we're living
That's what we give to You, Lord

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life
Lord I offer You my life

I want to let Jesus use me. If it means leaving everything that I have ever known, if it means sitting in a prayer room for hours, if it means living under a bridge, whatever I have to do, I want to make myself available to Jesus.
I want to be effective and involved in the Kingdom. I want to do exploits for the Lord. If I have to life a live of poverty, if I have to sell everything that I have to give to missions, if I have to endure persecution and suffering, whatever the Lord asks of me, I want to do mighty things for God.
I want to make it to heaven and see Jesus. If I have to forsake my loved ones, if I have to abandon every career that I have ever sought after, if I have to live in hiding, whatever it takes, I want to be saved.
These things are the earnest pleading of my heart.
These things are what I truly want.